The last few days have been very hard to deal with and my heart is heavy and broken all over again.
Not only was Dominic working for the Sheriffs Department as a 911 Dispatcher, but his goal was to become a Helicopter pilot for the Police Department. He was also already working on becoming a motorcycle cop and excited to be out there on the front line with his friends.
My extended family, his friends are Law Enforcement and the news of officers shot, injured and dead was more than I could handle.
I was kind of glad that I was no where near a tv, but we listened to it all happening on the radio as we traveled from California to Arkansas.
I lost it big time. My heart was hurting for those brave officers running into harms way, while others got to run away and hide and stay safe.
My mind went to the terrified family members at home, waiting if their loved one would return after a tragic day like that or if a couple of officers would knock on the door to deliver a life changing brutal message.
I am still in shock over what is taking place all over the country and I pray it will be over before it gets worst.
On the eve of the 4th anniversary of Dominic’s death, my heart is extra heavy as many families feel the pain I have in my heart 24/7, because their loved one was ripped out of their life in a split second.
I wonder if they were as blessed as I was/am.
Will they be able to say they enjoyed each other’s company and lived every moment as if it was their last?
Would they get to say they have no regrets on how they lived each day with that person?
Did they get to say good bye and hug and kiss, not knowing it was their last time together?
Would they be as fortunate as I am to be surrounded by many supportive and loving people long after the funerals ?
I will never know the answers, but I pray that those left behind, picking up the pieces, will have a little gift like Dominic left me.
Please keep all the victims, their families and all the First Responders in your prayers and thoughts.
They will never be the same.
May God bless each one of us.